When my husband asks me what I want for Christmas, I usually freeze. It’s not that I don’t have ideas—I do. But the question always feels loaded, like it might reveal more than I’m ready to share. The truth is, what I often want feels both simple and complicated: good skincare.

It sounds a little vain, I know. But I’ve spent years taking care of my skin. I’m 59 now, and I’m proud of how I look. People notice. They comment. And I appreciate that. Still, I sometimes wonder—why does it matter so much to me?

The Truth Behind the Mirror

Part of it, of course, is health. But the deeper truth is this: as I age, I feel myself clinging to a version of beauty I fear is fading. I tell myself it’s not about appearance. That it’s about self-care. That it’s about feeling good in my own skin. But beneath all of that is a quiet whisper that says: you’re only valuable if you still look beautiful.

And I know that isn’t true. Not really.

I’ve spent a lifetime asking “why?”—searching for meaning in what others might dismiss. So now I ask myself: Why do I link beauty with worth? What am I hoping to hold on to—and what do I need to let go of?

Maybe beauty isn’t just what we see. Maybe it’s the light we carry within us. Maybe it’s both.

Peace Over Perfection

This year, what I really want for Christmas is peace.
Peace with my reflection. Peace with the woman I’m becoming.
And peace with the idea that beauty doesn’t define me—it reflects something deeper.

Yes—I’ll take the skincare. And I’ll receive the grace, too.

Because I’m 59. I’m still learning.
And that, I’ve decided, is beautiful.

Products I Love

Over the past year, I’ve simplified my skincare routine—and switched fully to organic products from Glimmer Goddess.
It’s become part of how I care for myself: simple, clean, and intentional.

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